Painful Pasts And Addictions

If you don’t get the infection out of a wound it never completely heals.

If we keep using alcohol, drugs, sex, food or love Addiction to escape the pain, that we are afraid to face, we never heal completely.

There might be a temporary healing, it might form a scab of sorts but if infection is still present, even a tiny bit, it will fester and cause us trouble and pain over and over again.

It takes a conscious effort on our parts to find out exactly what the root of our pain is. It takes getting in and staying in the Word of God. It takes sincere heartfelt prayer asking God to show us the place where depression and emotional pain took root in our spirits. Once we understand where that place of pain originated we can then face it and get it out of our life.

We have to make peace with all the parts of our lives. No ones life is perfect. Bad things may have happened but Praise God they are over now! We made it through them.

Constantly dwelling on past hurtful memories will cause us to stay stuck in a place where we don’t move forward because we are still concentrated on the past.

In order to move forward we have to face the bad memories and look at them fully. We then say, “Past you no longer have a hold on me. What happened, happened. I see it, but I let it go because it no longer defines my life. The Word of God says I am a NEW creation.”

2 Corinthians 5:17 New International Version (NIV)

17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:[a] The old has gone, the new is here!

You, beloved, have the power through Christ, Jesus, to overcome you past and to quit letting it have any control over your current life. When the hurtful thoughts come you choose to dismiss them with thoughts, instead, of the wonderful future God has planned for you.

The choice is YOURS. You no longer have to keep letting the past infect today or tomorrow. Let the wound be healed. Look forward now to the glorious future that can be yours. You know the past was a dark, unhappy place of defeat. Why do you choose to keep visiting it?

I feel impressed to say to you today that some of you are your own worst enemies. You must make a choice daily to walk in abundant new life. You must make a choice to be committed totally to putting the old behind you and daily doing what it takes to get you to your promised land.

If any of your addictions really helped you would not be feeling bad now. There is a big difference between numbing pain and healing pain. God wants you to know TODAY is your day to walk free from Addiction. Today is the day you and God find the strength to move on. You are the only one that can change things. Make up your mind to walk into your glorious future. Tell God you are ready to put the hurt and pain behind! As you do so door after door will miraculously open in front of you!

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie Miller

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Words That Kill The Spirit

I am a senior citizen. I tell you that because I still have to give to God some of the hurtful, spiteful and frankly demonic things said to me as a child and throughout my life.

I give them to Jesus, I have forgiven those who said them, but Satan gets a lot of traffic from words. I know, if you take off your “Super Christian” hat you will admit it too. Words come back to bite at times when you are not even thinking of them. It’s Satans way of getting as much traction out of mean words as possible!

Bullies love to tear down with WORDS. People have killed themselves over mean words.

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.

Being mean with words is a habit, and it’s often learned from a parent who learned it from their parent. It’s a generational curse. It’s time for those reading this with a bad habit of saying mean things to BREAK the generational curse. Stop it now by giving it to God and praying to not endulge in making yourself feel better by making others feel worse. Quit using the “I was just kidding” excuse you weren’t kidding and it’s not funny!

Ephesians 4:29

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.

Matthew 12:36

I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak,

Proverbs 21:23

Whoever keeps his mouth and his tongue keeps himself out of trouble.

Proverbs 15:4

A gentle tongue is a tree of life, but perverseness in it breaks the spirit.

James 1:26

If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person’s religion is worthless.

Colossians 3:8

But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie Miller

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Thus Sayeth Yeshua 03/05/19

Thus Sayeth Yeshua

Oh my precious child I see your pain. I know there are days when you don’t even think you can get out of bed. I know you feel as if your heart is broken into so many pieces it cannot even be superglued back together.

You give your all for everyone but often feel that you are taken for granted. You have moments of longing for someone to just do something for you for a change. You are tired but you keep going. You used to dream of sitting on a warm beach with the wind ruffling your hair but you have given up on that dream, and so many others, in just trying to survive from one day to another.

Those you love have betrayed you so many times that you are feeling numb. You can’t even cry anymore. Silent tears run down your face.

You say to me, “God do you see me, like this? Do you care? Where are you God?”

I know pain my child. How do you think I felt the night before I was to be crucified and not one disciple stayed awake with me? We were intimate friends who had eaten together and prayed together and yet NOT ONE STAYED AWAKE WITH ME! I wondered, “Do they think this is all a game? Do they have any idea what I am facing?”

And yet I finished my mission, I prayed, “Father, if possible let this cup pass from me, but nevertheless not MY WILL BUT THY WILL BE DONE.” He didn’t answer and I went forward to do what I was sent to do so that you, and all my children, would not have to.

You too have a mission. Satan has made your mission so very hard because he knows how short his time is. He would be delighted to see you give up and take you to hell with him.

I am getting ready to turn everything around for you. I am going to do it in front of all those who have delighted in your problems. They are jealous of your light, they do not want you to succeed. But, my child, they will stand there with mouths wide open in shock when I bless you with not “just enough” to meet your needs, but also to meet the needs of other.

My child remember Joseph. He’s was also treated badly, horribly, and yet wherever he was he stayed true to me. Because of that I prospered him. When he could have shunned his evil brothers he helped them. When I prosper you I expect you to do the same!

Now, get up! Wash your face my beloved! Your redemption draws nigh!

Amen!

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie Miller

The Peace Of A Renewed Mind

If you’ve been following me for very long you probably know that I went through a period of God renewing my mind.

I had been through so much earlier on in my life, that I was experiencing a lot of what I would call paranoid thinking. I had read the book Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyer. I had come to the conclusion that my mind needed to be renewed. You probably know the Scripture in Romans 12:2 says “Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.”

I can remember the exact day I was sitting in front of my computer and out of the blue Satan put a thought in my mind. I begin to think on that thought and the more I thought about it, the more I begin to get this whole scenario going on in my mind about what I thought was going on in the situation. The more I thought about it the more my imagination went wild.

Suddenly, God spoke to my mind, “Cathie none of this that you are thinking is true. You think it’s true because it happened to you in another situation. Cathie, Satan is having a heyday with your mind.”

God begin to teach me that the thoughts we think expand. In other words if we are worried about something and we dwell on that, before you know it our thoughts are completely out of control. Not to mention that demons are attracted to worry thoughts and when we worry every demon in hell shows up to try to destroy our mind.

God begin to teach me to control my thoughts. When worry thoughts began to bombard my mind, I began to say to myself STOP. Then immediately I would force my mind to go somewhere else. I would turn on a move, I would play a game or I would read a book. Two thoughts cannot exist in our minds at the same time. It’s up to us to take control of our minds.

We may have spent a whole lot of time worrying about things. So we’re going to have to take time to renew our minds. Worry is a choice. We can just as easily choose not to worry.

We need to pray for God to help us renew our minds. God will meet us right where we are and help us to renew our minds. Once we’ve been doing it for a while we begin to feel overwhelming peace in the midst of problems, simply by not getting into worry about them.

I am convinced that every single occasion to sin in starts in our mind. For instance I noticed that when I’m trying to lose weight I might start thinking about a wonderful hot fudge sundae. I begin to see it in my mind, I imagine the creaminess of the ice cream and that wonderful chocolatey taste of the hot fudge. If I don’t stop that thought, it will eventually lead to me eating a hot fudge sundae.

If we do not let God teach us how to control our minds, even we Christians can get in all kinds of trouble. Trusting God is the antidote to worry, a spirit of imaginations and of fear that these things in our mind cause us to have. In Matthew 6:25 Jesus commands us not to worry.

If we have spent years letting our minds control us it may take a while, but with constant practice we can renew our minds.

There is a peace that God gives that passes all understanding but we will never find that peace until we make the choice to let God renew our minds.

In His Unconditional love,

Cathie

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Receiving The Baptism of The Holy Spirit

I accepted Jesus as my personal savior in the mid nineteen seventies. I had been raised without knowledge of the Word of God. My mother was an alcoholic when I was young and my father was codependent with her. My early years, as an only child, were full of dysfunction.

I fell madly in love with Jesus. I can remember that a week after I was saved I was watching Christian TV and they were explaining the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I wanted that too. I wanted all of the Christian experience!

My husband was at work and my children were taking naps. I got down on my hands and knees and started to pray and praise Jesus. Immediately the things in the room faded away as I got my first vision.

In front on my eyes, close enough to touch, I saw Jesus. He was hanging bloody and beaten upon the cross. I started crying and said, “No, oh God NO.” He raised his hanging listless head, looked me right in the eyes and said, “Cathie, if you were the only person in the world I would have still hung here just for you, that’s how much I love you!” I started crying, thanking him, telling him how much I loved him and suddenly I began to speak in a heavenly language. I had received the baptism of the Holy Spirit.

Shortly after that we bought our first little home ,for one dollar down on a VA loan, in Chino Hills California. The majority of our neighbors were Vietnam veterans and their families.

Not knowing the Word I took everything in the Bible literally. I read about, “Go into your prayer closet,” and I took it literally. When my two older children were in school, and the two youngest were down for naps, I would go into my closet and praise God and pray.

One day, after praying, I laid down on my bed to take a nap. I had a plaque on the wall that said, “But for the JOY set before Him, Jesus endured the cross.” Young, and not a longtime Christian, I wondered what that meant. All of a sudden the room got bright and full of light. I looked to my left and saw an angel standing there. He was dressed in a long white robe, with a gold sash around his waist. He had Aqua blue eyes and golden blonde hair. He touched me and all of a sudden beautiful waves of joy started washing over me. One wave of ecstasy after the other. I had never felt so peaceful. I never wanted that joy to end. It was supernatural and it was the most beautiful feeling ever! He spoke, and said, “That is the joy, set before Jesus. In heaven it never ends!”

Then I understood. I began to do neighborhood ministry. Many women came to know Jesus. I cannot wait to see them, in joy, in heaven!

We soon would sell that home, due to the children’s dad job transfer, and move to Visalia California. There the Lord would lead me to start another neighborhood bible study and sent me a mature woman of the Lord to teach it. Again many came to know Jesus. After being there a couple of years we were transferred to Seattle, Washington. I again started a neighborhood bible study. Women were getting saved. I wasn’t teaching but preaching and ministering to women.

At this point, Satan was getting rattled. He began to bring the big guns against me to destroy the ministry. Because I was not grounded in the Word I began to backslid. I stayed backslidden for years. Thankfully God had his hand on me and eventually, after going through a self-created Hell, I was restored to God.

Today, I know that some of you reading this have been away too. I know that God has great plans for your life but you have strayed as I did. Satan has used things to try and destroy you but you are still here! Why? Because God has held you. You are His. Today is your day. Renounce your past and ask Him to forgive you. Tell Him you are so sorry for straying. Admit and renounce the things you have been involved with. Ask Him to help you live daily for Him. Then, beloved, expect miracles! Your life is being launched forward. Buckle your seatbelt and prepare for a glorious ride!

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In His Unconditional Love

Cathie Miller

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Who Do You Depend On The Most?

This is not as easy as it seems. How much do you depend on someone else’s help? How much do you depend on your bank account or your savings? Imagine if everyone of these things was gone overnight? Now this is where the rubber meets the road. When people die unexpectedly,or become ill and are no longer there for you, and it’s just you and God what do you do?

In the natural we start to worry. We think one negative thought and then they snowball and then the next thing we know we are in full panic mode. I know because I have been there. Even as a Christian who professes to depend on God we live in these suits of flesh and the spirit is willing to trust in God but the flesh is weak.

When you first read this who came to your mind first? Did you say, “That won’t happen to me. No matter what happens I can depend on “so and so” helping me out. I will be Okay!”

But what if the worst happens. I spoke to a younger couple in the last year who depended heavily on his father for help. They were living in a home he owned. They were driving a car he gave them and if they were late on a bill they didn’t worry much because good old dad would bail them out.

On his way home from work one day a lady in another car ran a light and his dad was killed instantly. After that they saw a side of dad’s wife, his step mother, that they never saw coming. She now gave them a thirty day notice and told them they would need to move because she wanted/needed to sell the home they were living in. That was a plot twist they never saw coming and they had to face being without a back up system for the first time ever.

The good news is that drove them to God. But in the meantime, with no money saved, they had moments of panic.

The only way to make it through panic and worry is to learn to live strictly in the moment with God. Ground yourself by telling your mind STOP. Then be present with what you can do at the moment. Get your mind off of the problem by doing something else. Read a book, clean something or organize your closet. Get so involved in the moment you are in that you have no time to panic. Then, without panic thoughts, your mind becomes clear and God inspired ideas will come into your mind.

Anyone we put our trust in, besides God, can be gone in the blink of an eye. I urge you to become self-sufficient. Sooner or later you will have to do it anyway.

Then, LEARN TO BE IN THE MOMENT. Thinking about the what-ifs drive us to anxiety attacks. You don’t need to be anywhere except in the moment you are in. Depend on God and yourself ONLY.

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie

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Guarding Our Hearts

When we spend time with someone regularly we become like them. The intimacy we have with God daily leads us to the same kind of discernment Jesus used when dealing with people. We then have, “The mind of Christ.” Using His discernment we can deal with others the way Jesus did by observing how He dealt with people. Jesus was not afraid to call things out if need be. There is a time to be quiet, beloved, and a time to confront in love.

When I was being taught, by God, how to renew my mind, it was so mind blowing to see the following scripture; John 2:23-24

23 While Jesus was in Jerusalem at the Passover festival, many people believed in him because they saw the miracles that he performed. 24 But Jesus didn’t trust them because he knew human nature. No one needed to tell him what mankind is really like.

So Jesus knew, and we should too, that we have to use discernment when dealing with people because not everyone we come across is who they “appear” to be. Not everyone who told Jesus how wonderful his miracles were really loved Jesus. They loved the miracles but not all loved the miracle maker, God, and Jesus knew that.

In our own lives there are some people who might love what we do for them, but not us. They will use us and then abuse us when they can no longer use us.

I have found that people who have low esteem from years of abuse too easily seek approval of others. Certain users and abusers notice that in us and use it to their advantage. They can show a lot of love and approval but then, in order to get their way, they can refuse to give love and approval. It’s like a drug dealer feeds a junkie drugs and then when they see the person is hooked, they withdraw the drug availability and a junkie will then pay anything to get the drug they crave.

Discerning motives is the part of the mind of Christ, in us, that protects our boundaries.

In His Unconditional Love

Cathie

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Be Careful Of Your Words

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I am not usually a complainer. I have found out the hard way that complaining does no good and it actually is a lack of faith. Even as I write this I know that it will work out and that God has this and that it will be okay.

The thing is I am not perfect. You are not perfect either and as long as we wear these suits of flesh we will be subject to having days when we miss it, we miss the mark.

I was so looking forward to today for the longest time. Why you ask? Today was to be the very last student loan payment I had to make. I have had them automatically taken out of my account and today was to be the last day of a payment that would have been a car payment for most people. Instead we drive a 17 year old car, it looks okay and is in good condition and we are blessed to have it.

I woke up at 2:30 AM and was excited to check my account to make sure that the one last payment was gone and I would have the full amount of my direct deposit. Note to self, do not check you bank account at 2:30 AM when customer service everywhere is closed. So sure enough instead of the amount of my last payment, the department of education took out a whole lot more. I was in shock. I had no idea what was going on. The very next thought I had was, “ Why God? Can’t just one thing go right in my life?”

I slept little as I waited for Customer Service at the Department Of Education to open. I kept telling myself that God has this. I need to sleep and get my rest. But since I couldn’t seem to find a rational reason for what was happening I had a hard time doing that.

Finally I get through and I got a guy who must have been on his first day on the job today. I had him on speaker phone and both my husband and I were in shock. I could not get him to understand what had happened. He said, “Would you like to set up payments?” I said, several times, “I am calling because today was the last day of making payments and you not only took my payment but 3 times my payment.” He just couldn’t understand and I asked for a supervisor. By now my husband and I could not believe that the Dept. of Education, of all places, had people working there who couldn’t understand my problem. I also realized now that it was a Satanic attack. I couldn’t explain it any other way. No one could be that confused.

Finally I get the supervisor who tells me that I have to summit a paper to have the payments stopped and that he can do this for me. I told him that I was told they would be stopped automatically when the loan was paid off and he informed me that I was wrong. He also gave me the bad news that it would be 45 days before I could get the amount over and above my payment removed and refunded. To cheer me up he told me he would send me a letter stating my account to be paid in full. No reason for why this happened but he says it happens often. Great!

I am learning to live one day at a time. Anytime I make plans for the future I often have them not come through and I often have to start over in another direction anyway.

God tells us to live one day at a time like the Israelites who God would only give manna to for one day at a time. God knew that if they had plenty they would not put him first. I would like to think I would never, at this point in time, NOT put God first. But God knows us better then we know ourselves.

I had plans for a real turkey dinner this year with all the trimmings and a Christmas tree because I had to sell mine when everything went to heck in a hand basket financially because of my husbands 3 month hospital stay and all the bills that went with it. Now, it will be slim pickings but I thank Him that at least we have a roof over our head and others do not.

One more thing….We have to be so careful with the words that come out of our mouths. My husband and I pray together daily and each time we say the following, “No weapon formed against us will prosper!” They don’t prosper but they do happen. Today for example, it isn’t prospering but it is going to be hard for the next couple of months.

I said to my husband today, “We need to change our decree. We need to pray that we have no weapons formed against us at all. He agreed.

So I wrote this for a couple of reasons. So many times because I don’t complain people think I live in this wonderful bubble. It’s not true. Most of the time it’s just the opposite. Satan throws darts at me daily. I have learned, as hard as it is, that I must trust in God. Everything will work out. It always does. Today would have been an easy day for me to say, “That’s it, I cannot take anymore, God!” I made the CHOICE to keep on being faithful to Him. He is all I have and nothing bad comes from His hands.

Secondly, we MUST WATCH OUR PRAYERS! We might be using words that are actually cursing our situation and not helping it.

I have learned that what you say is what you get. From now on I will accept no weapon thrown against us! I will watch my words.

You have to be careful and precise with your prayers. For instance don’t just pray for a Christian mate but be specific with God. Write down 5 things your Christian mate needs to have for you to be happy with them. You don’t want just a Christian mate. You want one that prays with you, that knows the Word of God, that puts God first and you second. Then get specific with the physical attributes.

We must be so careful with our words. I do not want weapons formed against us to not prosper, I just don’t want weapons thrown at us from Satan at all.

In His Unconditional Love,
Cathie

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My Deliverance From Depression

God can heal depression. I know because I was miraculously delivered from a lifetime of pain caused by depression. Until God renewed my mind I would have thought I would be depressed forever….this is my story.

People have no trouble believing that someone with a physical ailment was healed. Why then is it so hard to believe that someone with depression can be healed?

I am old enough to remember those in my grandmothers generation just talked about someone who was down as having “the blues.” In my mothers generation the blues were changed into “depression” and came with a medical diagnosis and medication.

The big winner in treatment of depression is the pharmaceutical companies. They make billions off antidepressants. Some of the antidepressants cause anxiety. Now people become anxious and depressed. Some antidepressants also cause sleeping problems. Yet, antidepressants remain one of the most prescribed meds in the United States.

Anyone who has known me longer then 20 years will tell you that I had depression so severely that it was hard for me to get out of bed. I often spent days in bed with the curtains drawn. I was given one antidepressant after the other and they might have given me a little more energy, at first, but they only worked temporarily. Sooner or later I went back to being depressed.

Twelve years ago, with the help of my husband, I started researching depression. We soon began to realize it was almost impossible to find anyone who had been healed by pharmaceuticals. Around that time a drug called, Abilify was introduced. It was widely advertised on television. They said “If your antidepressant is not working you might want to add Abilify.”

Clinical depression: Depressed mood that meets the DSM-IV criteria for a depressive disorder. The term clinical depression is commonly used to describe depression that is a type of mental illness‘not a normal, temporary mood caused by life events or grieving. Notice this medical definition of clinical depression has no mention of chemically depressed;

And this one of Major Depressive Disorder;

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Major_depressive_disorder

I also want you to notice the length of time of the two major diagnoses for depression. Neither of these list “forever.” The pharmaceuticals companies do want anyone healed of depression. They want people on antidepressants forever because they are getting very wealthy from it. They can do this by brainwashing people that they are chemically unbalanced and there is nothing that they can do forever but take pills. We start to tell ourselves and others that until we believe it and it’s mind over matter. Now people are addicted to antidepressants and truly believe they must have them forever. That’s what Big Pharma wants. Don’t ever try getting off your antidepressants cold turkey. If you decide to stop taking them do so under medical supervision only.

I began to seek God through fasting and prayer because I counseled so many people who told me that they were depressed and when I asked if they were taking antidepressants they almost always said, “Yes” When I asked if they felt they were feeling any better they almost all said, “NO.”

I was sitting in front of my computer one afternoon and God spoke to my heart that he was going to heal me from depression and He was going to show me exactly how to help other people heal from depression. I have been completely healed from debilitating depression and my whole life changed. I am not going into it all in this blog post but there is a way to be set free and I have taught it to others who have also been set free from depression.

I have had more then one person tell me that they were paying someone up to “220.00” dollars an hour for therapy that wasn’t helping them. God’s method, as taught to me, will set you free and as the Word say’s, “Whom the Lord sets free is free indeed.”John 8:36.

The only failures I have seen are those who are not true believers in God and do not have a personal relationship with God. These are the scoffers who believe in traditional psychology and are sold out for pharmaceuticals.

When you are sick and tired of being depressed, God most certainly can and WILL deliver you. Depression is oppression that takes hold during a time of trauma or intense pressure. Depression is a common expression of a broken spirit. It is fed by daily dwelling in the valley of despair.

If you are ready to begin your healing process God will meet you right where you are and begin to renew your mind. Chemical imbalance can be healed through changes in diet and adding some vitamins and minerals supplements. That, and the correct tools, used faithfully, will continue your healing from depression.

God changed my life and it was such a miraculous change that my passion is to help others to do the same.

Disclaimer

I am not telling anyone to quit their antidepressants. I am not telling anyone to quit counseling or therapy. How you handle your depression is between you and God!

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My blog is always my opinion and my experience with God given instruction that I am passionate about sharing with others. Nobody is forced to subscribe and no one is forced to stay subscribed.

It’s not about me. It’s about God and the miracle experiences I have had in His presence. I want you to be set free and live successfully in Christ Jesus.

In His Unconditional Love,

Cathie