I accepted Jesus as my personal savior in the mid nineteen seventies. I had been raised without knowledge of the Word of God. My mother was an alcoholic when I was young and my father was codependent with her. My early years, as an only child, were full of dysfunction.

I fell madly in love with Jesus. I can remember that a week after I was saved I was watching Christian TV and they were explaining the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I wanted that too. I wanted all of the Christian experience!

My husband was at work and my children were taking naps. I got down on my hands and knees and started to pray and praise Jesus. Immediately the things in the room faded away as I got my first vision.

In front on my eyes, close enough to touch, I saw Jesus. He was hanging bloody and beaten upon the cross. I started crying and said, “No, oh God NO.” He raised his hanging listless head, looked me right in the eyes and said, “Cathie, if you were the only person in the world I would have still hung here just for you, that’s how much I love you!” I started crying, thanking him, telling him how much I loved him and suddenly I began to speak in a heavenly language. I had received the baptism of the Holy Spirit.

Shortly after that we bought our first little home ,for one dollar down on a VA loan, in Chino Hills California. The majority of our neighbors were Vietnam veterans and their families.

Not knowing the Word I took everything in the Bible literally. I read about, “Go into your prayer closet,” and I took it literally. When my two older children were in school, and the two youngest were down for naps, I would go into my closet and praise God and pray.

One day, after praying, I laid down on my bed to take a nap. I had a plaque on the wall that said, “But for the JOY set before Him, Jesus endured the cross.” Young, and not a longtime Christian, I wondered what that meant. All of a sudden the room got bright and full of light. I looked to my left and saw an angel standing there. He was dressed in a long white robe, with a gold sash around his waist. He had Aqua blue eyes and golden blonde hair. He touched me and all of a sudden beautiful waves of joy started washing over me. One wave of ecstasy after the other. I had never felt so peaceful. I never wanted that joy to end. It was supernatural and it was the most beautiful feeling ever! He spoke, and said, “That is the joy, set before Jesus. In heaven it never ends!”

Then I understood. I began to do neighborhood ministry. Many women came to know Jesus. I cannot wait to see them, in joy, in heaven!

We soon would sell that home, due to the children’s dad job transfer, and move to Visalia California. There the Lord would lead me to start another neighborhood bible study and sent me a mature woman of the Lord to teach it. Again many came to know Jesus. After being there a couple of years we were transferred to Seattle, Washington. I again started a neighborhood bible study. Women were getting saved. I wasn’t teaching but preaching and ministering to women.

At this point, Satan was getting rattled. He began to bring the big guns against me to destroy the ministry. Because I was not grounded in the Word I began to backslid. I stayed backslidden for years. Thankfully God had his hand on me and eventually, after going through a self-created Hell, I was restored to God.

Today, I know that some of you reading this have been away too. I know that God has great plans for your life but you have strayed as I did. Satan has used things to try and destroy you but you are still here! Why? Because God has held you. You are His. Today is your day. Renounce your past and ask Him to forgive you. Tell Him you are so sorry for straying. Admit and renounce the things you have been involved with. Ask Him to help you live daily for Him. Then, beloved, expect miracles! Your life is being launched forward. Buckle your seatbelt and prepare for a glorious ride!

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In His Unconditional Love

Cathie Miller

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