My Testimony And The Difference Between Truth And Judgement


The day before the Southwest Airlines incident, in which the woman was partially ejected from her seat and died, I experienced a shift in the atmosphere. I only mentioned it to my husband. I then read, and heard, of several other Christians that felt the same thing.


The folks that felt this “shift” did so between March 15 and March 20th of 2018.


By shift, what do I mean? I mean that God physically manifested a shift in the spiritual atmosphere. I knew, that I knew, we were going on to another level of battle in the spiritual realm.


I want to be really careful here. I ABSOLUTELY mean NO disrespect to anyone who was on that plane, and especially not to the poor woman who died! If that is not clear to you please do yourself a favor and quit reading NOW!


I inquired, of God, about the symbolism of that horrible incident, in prayer to the Lord. I knew that God knew that the woman, Jennifer Riordan, was a Christian who spent her life spreading love to everyone who knew her. Bottom line, I feel like she must be with the Lord, and that she must have gone there immediately. Granted, as someone said to me, “You don’t know what she was like in private.” No I do not. I do know however that you can put on a show for just so long and sooner or later you show your true colors. No one said anything but nice things about her. Now perhaps, through her death, much needed lessons were, and will be, learned by those who were close to her. I leave that to God.


Getting back to the symbolism. I have read countless stories about what happened. Every story said that there was a loud BOOM and then she was “sucked” out of her seat.


It reminded me of the pictures and sermons I have heard of the Rapture. There is a loud blast, of a Trumpet and then every one, who is going to be with the Lord, will rise. That is the Rapture of the dead in Christ and those who are fully surrendered to him. Then those who are left on the earth, the ones who are saved but not committed fully and the unsaved, will go through the Tribulation. It is not going to be pleasant. Then there is the Second Coming. At the time of the Second Coming Christ will come back with the dead in Christ and the fully surrendered that went during the Rapture, prior to the Tribulation. I am simplifying this. You can read the story in the book of Revelation, and there are many sermons you can read or listen to online to understand this clearly. I suggest Chuck Missler or Jonathan Kahn for clarification and further study about the above.


I believe the Rapture of the Church is imminent. I don’t believe in date setting but I do believe that we are very, very close to the Rapture and then the Tribulation. The tribulation will be worse then anything you can ever imagine it to be. Be prepared NOW so that you will not have to experience the horrible things coming on the earth


I want you to know that if you feel I am being “judgmental” at times it’s because I do know, without a doubt, that the Rapture is right upon us. I do not want anyone I care about, and those God cares about, to have to go through the tribulation.


I want to share a little about my life. I was first saved in 1976. It was during the Jesus Movement and I was living in California. I received the baptism of the Holy Spirit and immediately God used me to facilitate Bible Studies in my home. I was a babe in Christ; I certainly did not know enough to teach so God put me in touch with a mentor. She would come to my home once a week and lead the bible study. God’s presence was flowing. We saw miracle after miracle. Many women, who attended, were saved. It was truly the most beautiful time of my life.


Satan immediately came against me. I didn’t have the tools to fight the devil, as I did not know the Word of God, which is the armor of God we need to resist the devil.


I began to experience marital problems. I went through a lot of confusion. I had baggage from my childhood. Before I knew it I was backslidden. I got involved in going to bars with my girlfriends, and light drug use and alcohol. My ex husband was doing the same. I then got a divorce and moved back to Albuquerque.


From there things went from bad to worse. I went through one horribly dysfunctional relationship after another. I knew I wasn’t living for God and I began to make excuses.


I would find ways of saying that the bible didn’t mean we could not do this or that. I still believed in God but I justified my not living completely for him. I lived for the fun of life. I thought life was a banquet and I was starving. Drugs, sex and rock and roll were what were going on back then and I was involved in it. My friends were also involved in it.


I had no direction and no goals. I would work for money and then spend it all as soon as I got it. God was trying to get my attention. A few times I tried going back to church and I had good intentions but by the next Friday I was ready to party again. I told myself that God was love and God would not send me to hell because He loved me. Satan had me in deception.


Now, when you backslide God will come after you. He will chase you down and allow Satan to strip everything from you until you get right with Him again. Sometimes, and I have seen it often, He will stop giving you chances. I have had friends who were doing that one last hit, that one last drug deal and God said, “NO MORE!” At a point He turns us over to our own devices.


I was dating a bad class of men. Men, like me, who worked and partied and had no direction. I met a lot of men who did drugs all day, couldn’t hold a job and expected women to support them. When I got wise to that, and tried to get them to leave, they turned violent and they stayed that way until I ended up physically and mentally abused and had to turn to the police and victims advocates to help me. I was, by that time, an orphan. I was an only child whose parents were older when they had me. They both died early and left me in the world alone. I did what I had to in order to survive.


In order to survive I used my God-given discernment in the New Age Movement. I studied every religious sect you can name. I tried Buddhism, Hinduism and many others.

I was at one time considered one of the top ten psychics in New Mexico. I needed peace and I tried Yoga, Meditation, you name it. During this time I worked and begin to study Psychology, wanting to get my degree in Psychology and find out what was really wrong with me. I still was backslidden and God was still working on me. In 1999 one of my sons was coming down from Meth and tried to kill me. My son would later end up in a rehab facility and he evidentially got his act together. I had so much guilt about that as I knew that he had seen all kinds of drugs brought into our home and I felt like my permissive attitude led to him getting addicted to drugs.


After years of love addiction and bad living my life was in a mess. I went to church one Sunday and Mario Murillo was a guest speaker. It was like he was speaking right to me. I realized Christ was the only answer. The Holy Spirit hit me and I went forward and recommitted my life to Christ. God took me through a lot of confession, repentance and releasing of past emotional hurts to Him. During this time I was led to not date and during this time I was convinced I was to stay celibate until, and if, God gave me a Christian man. I was so in love with the Lord that it wasn’t hard. I didn’t even miss the physical affection. I knew that God had a calling on my life and He was expediting everything. I received vivid dreams during that time. I didn’t lose my discernment, but now I was only using it to the glory of God. Satan has a counterfeit to every gift of God. After attending the new church for a while I was ordained into women’s ministry.


I began to understand I was a love addict. I begin to study that and began to start finishing my degree. Five years later I met my husband through a Christian activity. When I told him that God had called me to celibacy until marriage I was shocked when he told me he felt the same way. During our first two dates together we spent both days doing bible study. He was a Messianic Believer and so was I. We could see that God put us together for a few reasons. He is an Old Testament scholar and I am a touchy feely person who loves people and wants to see them saved and living victoriously. He taught me the deep meaning of the Word and I led him to being more of a people person.


We got married on a day of blessing, as explained in the Old Testament. I moved to Denver to live with him. Things did not go well. He had a son living with him that he had not told me about. He assumed it wouldn’t matter. My kids were grown and living on their own. I guess he thought if he told me I wouldn’t marry him. He was probably right.


The first four years of our marriage was absolutely horrible. I had been single for years and so was he. I liked being single and he did too. Neither of us wanted to give in to the other. I had a spirit of imaginations, due to my prior dysfunction, that had not been dealt with. I begin to accuse Chuck or all sorts of bad things that mostly were not true. His sons took his side. I felt ganged up on and insecure and unhappy. I tried leaving him a few times but God kept bringing me back through hard circumstances.


Chuck was totally self-centered and ego-centered. If he felt like going somewhere he would just go, not caring if he told me first or not. He had things that needed to go in his life. He hadn’t given things up that he did while single that didn’t fit into a Christian man’s life.

Through a series of hard circumstances God brought us both to our knees and we surrendered to Christian married life. Seven years afterwards he almost died, and that whole experience tempered us both out and we surrendered to Christian marriage, and ministry, and we have never looked back.


I said all of that to say this. I went through so much junk that I didn’t have to go through because I was rebellious. I thought I would have no fun being a Christian. I was so wrong! The Christian life, when you are totally committed to Christ, is fun! Yes, you still have hard times but now you are in a three-fold cord with Christ. It’s you, your spouse and Christ. It’s a covenant. You don’t easily break a covenant.


During the first of our marriage Chuck and I were still drinking occasionally. I noticed that when I was drinking I didn’t feel as close to Christ. After Chuck being ill and having to take medications he found that alcohol didn’t mix with them. We both decided that our drinking wasn’t good for us. We were more easily led into a disagreement and we didn’t like the way we felt anymore when we were drinking.


One day I read this scripture, in 1Peter 5:8. “Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour.”

From that point on, neither of us took another drink of alcohol.

I told you all of that because I want to explain why I am so honest and say what I think about getting sin out of our lives. Both Chuck and I wasted so much time and money living the party life when we were young. We had no goals, went from relationship to relationship, saved no money and didn’t commit ourselves to one job. We were both free spirits and we paid dearly for being free spirits.

I love people and I have dedicated the rest of my life to helping as many people as possible learn much earlier, then we did, that living for Christ is what we were born for and the longer we deny that the worst our lives become.

Heaven is not going to be a boring place. It’s going to be beautiful and fun with lovely homes to live in. Don’t miss it by wanting to hold on to temporary pleasure.

Lay down anything and everything that’s keeping you from fully surrendering to Christ. Find a good church. When I was backslidden I didn’t want to go to bible teaching churches. I didn’t want my conscience pricked. So I went to churches that occasionally read scriptures but didn’t teach the word. There are so many great churches available for folks now. Why wouldn’t you want to try one? If you make friends with people at your church you are going to find people with like minds. People who have fun and get together without drugs and alcohol. It’s that simple!

If you need help, write me. I love to mentor people. I will help you find a church in your town that will help you to grow!

I know about temptation. I know about hurt. So does God. He has been through both of those things. Please understand that I am not judgmental. I am a truth teller. I intend to keep telling the truth because I want you to know the truth. The truth will set you free!


In His Unconditional Love,



4 thoughts on “My Testimony And The Difference Between Truth And Judgement

  1. Cathie,
    Thank you so much for this post. You would be amazed how much we have in common! I know God is speaking to me through this. I’ve felt like He wants me to start a blog sharing my testimony and some of the things He’s teaching me along the way. I have so many things I want to ask you but I’m not sure where to start. Thank you again for sharing this.

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